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I live with no regrets….

I hear others speaking all the time and a phrase I constantly hear is, “I wish I never did that” or ” I regret I did that..why did I?”. Well I can say I live with no regrets. It makes life easier for me. I have a past. I have done things I am not pleased with, but I do not regret them. Yes it was exactly what I wanted to do at that moment in time with no thought of what it might do for my future. No thoughts of anything really. I’ve come to the understanding that without those moments that most would “regret” I would not be who I am today. I would not be the girl typing these words. I am not going to play the “I might have been” game. I am happy with who I turned out to be. I have my low moments, but that’s just who I am. Everyone has their low moments..the moments they relapse. That is a part of the healing process that can and sometimes does take years. Now regrets can involve not so serious topics like a guy/girl you dated or things of that nature. Again I would not be who I was if I didn’t date the guys I dated. I would have never found my fiancee either. These are my opinions you do not have to agree with me. That is okay I respect how everyone feels. 

You may send me your thoughts I will listen and answer each one. Anons have to be answered publicly, but everyone else I will answer in private. 

~Adelia

Your voice will always be heard here so never feel afraid to share. 

My sister is ok :)

~Adelia

Daily Thoughts.

So I wanted to share with you guys that even when you are happy bad things happen. I have had the worst day in a long time. I am trying my best not to relapse. I am lucky I have my fiancee keeping me sane. He got me to eat when I didn’t want to and other things. 

What happened…I woke up this morning to find my brand new scooter..(3000 dollars mind you) stolen. I just made my first payment on it. I have had less than one month. Okay it was just a scooter, but it was my ride everywhere. I am TERRIFIED of driving a car. I am weird like that. This scooter was the best investment I have made and now it’s gone. I still have to pay for it. I have no way of making these payments and getting another form of transportation. I am tired of rely on Peter my fiance for rides. I felt so independent on my scooter. It was unique. It looked like a mini vespa. It was beautiful. I am so mad at whoever took it. I can barely afford it in the first place..and you just take it. I was in tears all day. I filed a police report. I had to leave work early. I avoided going home so I would see the empty parking spot. 

I finally get home and the phone call comes…

My mom calling to say my sister is being rushed to the hospital. I live two hours away. There is no way I can get there. I start crying all over again. She went into anaphylactic shock. This has me scared out of mind. I have Anaphylaxis, meaning when I get an allergic reaction to something I go into life threatening shock. When we found this out I was 17 and was bit by seven fire ants. I lost my life..I literally flat lined. I had amazing doctors that saved me. Now my sister is going through this..I have reason to be scared. They have no idea why she went into shock. I still haven’t heard anything else from my mom. I’m still scared. I have cried so many tears tonight I could make my own river.

No matter how happy you are things happen..life happens. It’s not always good, but how you react to these things happening whether it’s positive or negative. I am trying to keep my head up. I went and watched my friend play basketball tonight. It help distract my mind for a bit. If you are going through anything don’t keep it to yourself. Talk to a friend or anyone you trust. I am having a rough time right now, but I am going to try and stay positive. I will post later about my sister’s condition when I learn more. I hope she is okay. After getting that phone call my scooter means nothing. I rather have her than the scooter. I am still mad at the loss, but I have bigger things to worry about. I am done ranting now. Thank you guys for listening.

~Adelia. 

Never Give Up….

Do you have a dream? Do you want to be on stage, a musician, a skater, an artist, a teacher, a fireman, a lawyer, a stay at home mom or dad? If you never give up and never lose faith you can achieve those dreams. I speak from experience. As a little girl I’ve always wanted to act, do art teach and help others. I am doing all of those things. I have acted in the “Hunger Games”, “Homeland” and will be on a show soon called “Distraction”. I am short and not your typical on screen beauty. That is fine by me. I will not let that get me down. I will keep trying until I land a great role. I teach everyday, but being a role model to my little sisters and my fiance’s nieces. I wanted to be a teacher, but I didn’t think I would reach my students in the classroom. So I am going to try and reach them in other ways. I am getting together an anti bullying presentation and I’m going to share it at local schools. I will reach these kids. I am achieving my art dream just by doing art everyday. I draw and write as much as I can. I paint when time allows. You can do many things as long as you keep your head held high. Do you have a talent you want to share? Submit it here. I would love to see it. Let your own talents and dreams inspire those around you. 

~Adelia

I know this was more of a personal post, but oh well. I am here always to talk.

Anonymous asked: Just wanted to let you know how great I think this blog is - stay strong and keep it up; you are changing lives.

Thank you so much. This means a lot to me. 

Hey Everyone!

Sorry I haven’t been posting in a LONG time. I have been extremely busy. I am hoping to find free time soon! I am always here though to answer any and all questions. Just because I am not constantly posting does not mean I am not here to listen. :)

I love you all,

Adelia

So I realized I will never be a size 0 or even a 2. It’s physically impossible for me because of the shape of my body and my bones. The only way to be that small is to lose bone. I am okay I will never be that tiny, in fact I would never want to be that small. I am healthy and active. I am very happy with my body. I may have flubs, but I love those flubs. I have a wonderful man who would love me no matter what I look like so I don’t worry about it. I have no need to impress anyone. I love food. I love being energetic. Nothing will change. I am happy with who I am. I do find everyone is beautiful, all body types. You don’t have to be a size 2 to be happy and healthy. :)

~Adelia

Hey There

Hey everyone I am so sorry I haven’t done much posting lately. I just have been having a very rough week myself. My anxiety disorder is acting up again. I’m still here for everyone so continue to ask questions. I may not be posting, but I am Here. I wonder sometimes how I can help someone when I can’t even help myself? Then I realize I can help you..I can be there for you. I can encourage and give my support. So that is what I am going to do. You are all strong and beautiful. I love all of you. 

~Adelia~